Life is Frustrating

What the hell is the point of meeting someone, connecting with them in a substantial way, only to have something happen to them that puts a huge emotional distance between you and them? And then you have to sit back and watch from a distance as more circumstances don't let you get in more than a "hello" at church when all you want to do is run to them and comfort them in their time of pain.

It all just makes me want to scream... it nearly had me in tears on Sunday after church.

Yes this person is a girl, yes I have a crush on her, and yes I couldn't possibly be more frustrated with the whole situation. Going on a vacation right now is a double-edged sword. I desperately need to get out of Sudbury, but in being away I can't be there in the off chance she wants to talk. I hate developing crushes this easily.

Matthew.