Back from Mississauga

This is just going to be a quickie since I've only been home for an hour and I'm pretty pooped. I very much enjoyed my week away, but it's good to be home. The week was a tough one as Dana and Andy tried to help me wrestle with my feelings about my future. Probably the most poignant statement to come out of our discussions was: "You can't steer a parked car." I need to get my life moving again and pick a direction to drive in and go. I've been waiting for a big miraculous sign from God to give me a direction, but after all these years it still hasn't come. They pointed out that I'm in a pretty blessed time in my life even if it doesn't feel that way. I have the complete freedom to chose where to go next in my life. I have nothing holding me back but my own fears. No family (wife and kids), no debt, no house... just a job that I don't enjoy. So this week I'm going to try my best to find an apartment since it looks like I won't have much else to do. I may not even be going to Ottawa this coming weekend because it looks like the friends there I want to see the most are going to be out of town.

Matthew.