Clemster's Playground

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

The End of "No Idols"?

So I made sure I made it to my appointment with my specialist yesterday (yay me!) and he's trying me on a new "cocktail" of meds. If I see no improvement in a week I'll have to go for another scope. In a way I hope the meds don't work because I want to know if my IBD has worsened/spread.

The worship band I'm a part of, No Idols, is kind of on rocky ground right now. The next two practices I found myself waiting outside the church in the cold for our leader, Ron, to show up. The first week I was the only one that wasn't told practice was cancelled. Last week there were three of us that weren't told and left out in the cold. We've led worship at church once since Easter and our practices over the summer were usually just Toby and me. I mean I understand that life gets busy and you don't always have time for the band, so why then is he still the leader? Things need to change, but I don't want us to meet and "scheme" behind his back which is sounds like some people want to do. We've got a new drummer, Bruce, and it sounds like he wants to take over. If he does I'm pretty sure I'll leave the band. Bruce seems more opinionated than Ron. Ron had never led worship before, he had done a lot of performing. I on the other hand had about 3 years leading worship in small and large groups so I had a hard time submitting to Ron's leadership. My problem is not being very assertive. I don't always stick up for myself. I thought a lot about quitting in the past but I never went through with it.

Bruce has been part of a Vineyard worship team in Toronto, but I'm not sure if he was the leader or not. So I'm sure his opinion will carry more weight than mine will. Hearing him talk about starting up another big worship team for our church with brass instruments and the works makes me grimace. The church doesn't need another showy worship team - it's already got one. The church just hired two part-time guys to look after the music in the service. I've already been told they want me involved but I want to know exactly what I'm getting into. I guess I'll just have to wait and see what they propose. If it were up to me I would start small, getting rid of most of the current team, but man would that ever cause an uproar. lol

Being a worship leader makes it tough to worship when someone else has the reigns so to speak. It's too easy to get critical of their leading style and even song choices. Gotta think less with my mind and more with my heart in those situations.

Matthew.

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