Clemster's Playground

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

A Few New Developments

After thinking about it for a few weeks, I've decided to reduce the dairy content in my diet. Why did I have to think about it for that long you ask? Well, being the man of habit that I am, every morning for breakfast I have two bowls of Honey Nut Cheerios. So milk is an important staple to my regular diet. For the time being I've replaced the cereal with Eggo Waffles. Leggo my Eggo! :D

The reason behind this madness? Dairy could be the irritant that flares up my Colitis. Over the years that I've been dealing with this chronic illness I've always had my two bowls of cereal for breakfast. Well Saturday was my first day without milk in the morning and the change was pretty drastic. Mind you I didn't have a typical Saturday since I spent a few hours raking the yard for my dad, so the exercise could have made a difference as well. But since Saturday my Colitis has been a lot easier to deal with. Now if only the new meds would stop making me nauseous near the end of the day. Maybe I can even go back to my old meds. We'll see what my specialist says at my next appointment.

I found out yesterday that Jenita is indeed engaged. I haven't heard from her since I discovered that she had moved on and was dating someone else. I suspected that they got engaged, so it's not exactly an earth shattering discovery.

I still care about her and I've always been curious about what's going on in her life. She went to teacher's college - is she a teacher now? She was going to school in North Bay which is no more than a 2 hr drive from here - is she still living there? I knew she and Pete were dating and now I know they've been engaged for a few months and they might be getting married this summer.

Now don't get me wrong. My wondering about her has never been obsessive. Never in the hopes that we'd get back together. There's just always been that uncut thread between us I guess because I had left the ball in her court - she was supposed to get back to me over a year ago and never did. But at the same time I've never been able to get over that silly fear I had that she'd pop up again. That she'd get employed here at the school board. That I'd see her and Pete drive by one morning while I'm waiting for the bus. What am I afraid of? Being rejected? Discovering that I'm not over her after all? Or maybe it's just the fear of those awkward silences that are bound to happen if we talk - the internal worrying about how deep our conversations should get.

Anywho. That's about it for now. I still have to get my butt in gear though and look for another job.

Clemster.

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