Lots On My Mind After a Vacation
Well I'm back from visiting Dana, Andy, and Nathan in Toronto. Nathan is absolutely adorable and is a very happy 11 month old. He's quite content doing just about anything - he pretty much only cries when he's tired, hungry, or something is wrong. I spent a lot of time climbing the stairs with him, pretending to chase him, making him laugh, and cuddling with him. He likes to snuggle up in the crook of your neck. Ah what a cutie. Too bad he was getting over a cold so he wasn't always feeling so well. I don't think one of my shirts escaped his runny nose.
It was really really nice to spend time with Dana and Andy again. A year and a half is too long and I don't plan on waiting that long to go and visit them again. There aren't many people I feel that comfortable with. We had some pretty deep and tough conversations. Good stuff but never easy to go over: like how their first attempt at a child was a still birth and their new place has three rooms - one for them, one for Nathan, and one for Jillian who didn't make it. The hardest for me was filling them in on how little my life has changed since they left Sudbury. How I'm still struggling with the same sins. Still wishing for the same dreams to come true.
And of course at least once a day they asked me when I was moving to Toronto. It could easily happen. There's not much holding me in Sudbury anymore. I don't have a group of friends that I can hang out with. I don't have a church where I feel at home. And well who doesn't want to get away from their parents? In the past if I had to choose a city to move to I would have said Ottawa would be my first choice because of how nice the city is, but with Dana and Andy in Toronto it wouldn't be a cut and dry decision anymore. Maybe it's time to watch the job market again since my contract here is up in June. It would be easy to stay here but is that really the right decision? Is moving away from my parents enough or is a move out of Sudbury what I need?
Lots of questions on my mind with too few answers. If you think of me in your prayers please pray for guidance for me. I don't want to move out and end up moving back in - again. I've already done that once and I do not want to go through that a second time. Thanks.
P.S. - Hopefully my pictures from the weekend turned out okay so I can post them here.
Matthew.
It was really really nice to spend time with Dana and Andy again. A year and a half is too long and I don't plan on waiting that long to go and visit them again. There aren't many people I feel that comfortable with. We had some pretty deep and tough conversations. Good stuff but never easy to go over: like how their first attempt at a child was a still birth and their new place has three rooms - one for them, one for Nathan, and one for Jillian who didn't make it. The hardest for me was filling them in on how little my life has changed since they left Sudbury. How I'm still struggling with the same sins. Still wishing for the same dreams to come true.
And of course at least once a day they asked me when I was moving to Toronto. It could easily happen. There's not much holding me in Sudbury anymore. I don't have a group of friends that I can hang out with. I don't have a church where I feel at home. And well who doesn't want to get away from their parents? In the past if I had to choose a city to move to I would have said Ottawa would be my first choice because of how nice the city is, but with Dana and Andy in Toronto it wouldn't be a cut and dry decision anymore. Maybe it's time to watch the job market again since my contract here is up in June. It would be easy to stay here but is that really the right decision? Is moving away from my parents enough or is a move out of Sudbury what I need?
Lots of questions on my mind with too few answers. If you think of me in your prayers please pray for guidance for me. I don't want to move out and end up moving back in - again. I've already done that once and I do not want to go through that a second time. Thanks.
P.S. - Hopefully my pictures from the weekend turned out okay so I can post them here.
Matthew.
1 Comments:
Moving to a different city always has it's advantages and disadvantages. I live in montreal, and i cannot wait to move to toronto as well. I'm sure you'll make the right decision, when you are truly committed to something, everything else will fall into place. :)
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Jessica, at 2:57 PM
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