Being Free of Home?

I just got an e-mail from my friend Sabrina who I went to visit when I was in Ottawa. She made the comment that I looked really free when I was there. A couple of years ago, when I went with Jenita (my ex) to go to her aunt's wedding in Saskatchewan, she told me how free I seemed when I was there and also that she watched me draw in on myself as the plane neared Sudbury. Two women telling me the exact same thing. And this is the second time that those two have done that. The first time they told me I had a flirting problem and that led me to realize that I was idolizing marriage which is something I'm still working on. But in this case their statements are years apart.

So what's that supposed to mean? Is being in Sudbury bad for me? Or maybe it's living with my parents that's the problem. Is there something about this city or living with my parents that I subconsciously perceive as oppressive? Maybe it's the church I go to. I've never felt all that free to worship there and just let go. Maybe it's my job. Maybe computers. I just don't know but I did only read that e-mail from Sabrina five minutes ago. Maybe this will be a reason to start talking to Him again.

Matthew.